The worth of our children

This blog has been good for me. I have enjoyed contemplating my birth and mothering experiences, but the most notable benefit for me has been how I view my children. I have had to reflect on how I see myself, my children, and my role as a mother. I have thought deeply about why I choose to experience pain, and the difficulties of childbirth and motherhood. People have often asked me why in the world I would make these choices...and now I feel like I have found a reason and some meaning.

I'm watching my children now as they are enjoying the view of a cement truck in our backyard. I would not choose to give up the pains and difficulties I've experienced if it meant not having them here. I find so much joy in them.

Women had much harder choices to make when they had children 100 years ago. They faced death and heartache a lot more than we do now. That would be really hard to find meaning in. There must just be something with these little ones of ours that make it worth while. That's something to really think about...