So I've decided to do it...I am wanting to focus more exclusively on just providing labor support. It's been an interesting journey for me...one that I don't think is really over.
When I first went into nursing, I really had no idea that I would love labor and delivery. Even after the birth of my first two children, I had no clue that I would be pulled to do this. And I was pulled...I have felt like this has almost become a calling for me in many ways. And my love for new moms and babies has grown so deeply. When I applied for the labor and delivery job I have now, I knew it was where I was supposed to be. But it's now time to move on.
Now December will be the last month I work for the hospital system I am working with. I am just about finished with my doula certification and I've felt like this is where I need to go now. But I feel like this is just another stepping stone....to something much more.
I have aspirations for becoming a midwife, but these stepping stones are something much more. By serving women, I have learned to love. I have learned to cry. I have learned to be amazed. All these things I have brought with me now...so where will this next stepping stone lead me. Who will I become now? For sure a better mom and woman...hopefully a little bit less selfish and more humble. These are all stepping stones we take, no matter what profession we have or who we are.
I have an image in my head of a wonderful loving woman who looks at me with a heart full of kindness and a desire to see me find joy. This is the woman I hope to be at the end of my life...and these stepping stones are just ways for me to find her. But for now I'll be a doula in Provo. And for anyone who is looking forward to a new little one and is in my area...I would love to be privileged to help you with your stepping stone in your journey to motherhood.